Becoming a SAHM…and why it’s harder than I thought it would be

We are officially settled into our new home. We live in a cute and quiet condo close to the mountains. We absolutely LOVE the location. We are 10 minutes from the zoo, Garden of the Gods, and all sorts of hikes. It’s wonderful.

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We do not, however, have air conditioning. And last night I was downstairs on the couch until 4 a.m. because it was so unbearably hot in our room upstairs. So miserable. I’m sure I won’t even notice come September 7, when I no longer have a little heater in my belly. A window air conditioner may be in our future. Out of absolute necessity. ;)

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The biggest transition for me has been transitioning into a stay-at-home mom. I worked full-time in South Dakota. I was gone from 8-5 every week day since he was 3 months old. It broke my heart, because all I have wanted to do for years, is be a home maker and a mother. So when it became clear after Noah was born that it was best for our family if I worked during that time, I was fairly devastated. BUT, I surprised myself. I actually liked going to work. I liked taking a shower every morning and putting on nice clothes. I liked getting out of the house when stress was high from a sleepless night. It still broke my heart to leave him (although it was easier because I was able to leave him with my mother almost every day), but I liked having a purpose outside of the house.

Now, my job is my home. And it is a lot harder than I expected it to be. It is difficult to know, at the end of the day, whether I have done my job well. Did I do the laundry to completion? Did I vacuum all the crumbs? Did I sweep the kitchen? Did I play with my son? Did I give him intellectual stimulation? Did I give him balanced meals throughout the day? Did I show him how much I love him? Did I welcome my husband into a peaceful home? Did I prepareΒ a dinner that filled him? Did I soak in the time we had that evening as a family? Did I appreciate my husband enough?

Most days I don’t know the answers.

But that’s okay.

What I do know, is that I am so thankful for the chance to pour into my son and husband. I am thankful to serve God by maintaining the food, finances, and upkeep of my home.

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I’m not super talented at any aspect of homemaking. But I am excited to work my fanny off at it. Because I love that little boy and that handsome man.

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In other news, that little dude is now walking. And practicing his running. Oh dear. ;)

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Three Year Run

Charlie is paranoid of bugs. He thinks he sees them everywhere. Which results in a lot of pouncing on nothing. And running quickly back and forth chasing the “offender”. Every once in awhile he actually gets one, which makes me happy. It’s a perfect set up – he stays occupied for a good part of the day and I get a bug-free household!

After long talks and lots of prayer, we have set up a 3 year plan for our little family.

YEAR ONE: I get to start teaching first grade! :) Connor will continue working full time at Dicks, potentially moving up in the sporting goods world. GOAL: Live below our means. Our purpose in this is to begin making huge payments on our (actually, it’s mostly mine) student loans, while at the same time building our savings account (for future babieees!). Our biggest challenge in this will be to stay within our food budget. We love food a shameful lot. Meal planning, coupon clipping, and monitored restaurant outings are in our future.

YEAR TWO: Continue work schedules of year one. Our lease will be up so we will begin looking on either a cheaper apartment for the next year or an affordable house, depending on how much we’ve been able to save in year one.

YEAR THREE: Sometime during year 3, we will have our student loans paid off in their entirety. BOOM! …I hate waiting. In this case, however, I think it is entirely worth it. If we have been in an apartment up until this point, our next step is to finally get that pretty little house with a pretty little yard.

Connor and I do not want a life dictated by where spent money years ago. We want to be able to always move forward and look forward, together serving Christ.

“… since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.” Hebrews 12:1

Side note: I found this darling blog via pinterest today:Β http://www.domesticimperfection.com/